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This Gashed Knees Won’t Seem to Heal

Today, I woke up with a bruised & injured soul. Mat Salleh call it ‘waking up on the wrong side of the bed’. It only happens when I dreamed of ‘her’.

She sat across the table. Smirked and disgusted, she told me off. ‘Please’, my word uttered several times.

This is not the first time I’ve been brought down to my knees and definitely not my last. No matter how tough I pretended to be, I can never wage a fight against my subconscious mind (neither can you).

I guess I truly love her.

The past has eaten our careful time, she’s now a successful woman. I’m dead sure, that she’d never take a glimpse at a mere web developer.

What is left for me, is to chase my passion and hope that it’ll be a fruitful future.

I shall leave you with my favorite Quran line,

So, verily, with every difficulty, there is relief.
Verily, with every difficulty there is relief.
(سورة الشر  , Al-Inshirah, Chapter #94, Verse #5 & 6)

Amin.

 

There are 14 Comments for “This Gashed Knees Won’t Seem to Heal”

wahhh ada juga post ala2 tazkirah untuk hari ke-2 :mrgreen:

aku suka ! hehe :up:

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NoktahHitam replied #1

ko nak tazkirah hari2 ke ape?

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MakanMalaya wrote on August 27, 2008 #1

Ergh~ Tell me abt it. Join me! Let’s sulk like there’s no tomorrow!!! Erk???!!! :arrow:

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NoktahHitam replied #1

sulk sulk sulk.. sunsilk?

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atreyu stange wrote on August 27, 2008 #2

Al Insyirah is my MOST favorite surah.. Rasa terubat je soul bila dengar that ayah kan?

mungkin DIA lebih tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kamu.. you’ll find someone much much better insha Allah.. ;)

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Amin. Semoga Allah memberkati usahe kami.

Insyirah best bace mase nak tido. It’s a lovely poem.

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nono wrote on August 28, 2008 #3

Bercampur-baur perasaan lepas baca post ni … I feel sad because you love ‘her’ so much and yet she doesn’t know it.. she’s lucky to have someone who loves her as much as you do… but maybe it’s just not meant to be … which is very relevant to the final words.. aku suka post cam ni hehehe

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NoktahHitam replied #1

it’s not meant to be. I hope God understands this and lift this burden off my soul. I’m tired of beating against myself, I should be rocking elsewhere.

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melbie wrote on August 28, 2008 #4

Sungguh dalam cintanya.. dude, reading this macam baca majalah Ujang – Blues untuk aku plak. :grin:

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NoktahHitam replied #1

that was the intention. Hahaha

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bongkersz wrote on August 28, 2008 #5

ouch.. i woke up this morning and found some stain on my pant.. hehe

i pretty like the quranic verse. it suit me well

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NoktahHitam replied #1

stain on your pants? period, pms datang bulan?

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myadlan replied #1

hehe.. its a guy stain la.. hehe.. shh

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myadlan wrote on August 29, 2008 #6

owh.. *heart melt*

i’m dead sure ‘her’ heart will melt too upon reading this. :wink:

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mie wrote on August 31, 2008 #7

Leave a comment, I won't bite ;)

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