This Gashed Knees Won’t Seem to Heal

Today, I woke up with a bruised & injured soul. Mat Salleh call it ‘waking up on the wrong side of the bed’. It only happens when I dreamed of ‘her’.

She sat across the table. Smirked and disgusted, she told me off. ‘Please’, my word uttered several times.

This is not the first time I’ve been brought down to my knees and definitely not my last. No matter how tough I pretended to be, I can never wage a fight against my subconscious mind (neither can you).

I guess I truly love her.

The past has eaten our careful time, she’s now a successful woman. I’m dead sure, that she’d never take a glimpse at a mere web developer.

What is left for me, is to chase my passion and hope that it’ll be a fruitful future.

I shall leave you with my favorite Quran line,

So, verily, with every difficulty, there is relief.
Verily, with every difficulty there is relief.
(سورة الشر  , Al-Inshirah, Chapter #94, Verse #5 & 6)

Amin.

NoktahHitam

I am web developer, who's main concern is to save the trees. Nonetheless

This Post Has 14 Comments

  1. wahhh ada juga post ala2 tazkirah untuk hari ke-2 :mrgreen:

    aku suka ! hehe :up:

  2. Ergh~ Tell me abt it. Join me! Let’s sulk like there’s no tomorrow!!! Erk???!!! ➡

  3. Al Insyirah is my MOST favorite surah.. Rasa terubat je soul bila dengar that ayah kan?

    mungkin DIA lebih tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kamu.. you’ll find someone much much better insha Allah.. 😉

  4. Bercampur-baur perasaan lepas baca post ni … I feel sad because you love ‘her’ so much and yet she doesn’t know it.. she’s lucky to have someone who loves her as much as you do… but maybe it’s just not meant to be … which is very relevant to the final words.. aku suka post cam ni hehehe

  5. Sungguh dalam cintanya.. dude, reading this macam baca majalah Ujang – Blues untuk aku plak. 😀

  6. that was the intention. Hahaha

  7. ouch.. i woke up this morning and found some stain on my pant.. hehe

    i pretty like the quranic verse. it suit me well

  8. stain on your pants? period, pms datang bulan?

  9. it’s not meant to be. I hope God understands this and lift this burden off my soul. I’m tired of beating against myself, I should be rocking elsewhere.

  10. Amin. Semoga Allah memberkati usahe kami.

    Insyirah best bace mase nak tido. It’s a lovely poem.

  11. ko nak tazkirah hari2 ke ape?

  12. hehe.. its a guy stain la.. hehe.. shh

  13. owh.. *heart melt*

    i’m dead sure ‘her’ heart will melt too upon reading this. 😉

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