Posted on August 21, 2015
It’s been a while since I wrote anything here. The last post was in December. I guess I just didnt have any appetite since then.
I started NH out curiosity and soon it was used to remind myself, what I was like when I was young. Boy, I sure have grown a lot over the past few years.
So what’s up with me now?
First, I got fired (konon drama) from a company I’ve been nothing but loyal to for the past 6 years. In their defense, it was a method to get the ‘right sizing’, what ever that means. It came with a good compensation, so I’m good (at least for now). I was going to resign anyway, so with the right package, and the right timing, the push and pull factor was just too hard to resist.
However I do regret about the things I didn’t get to realize. I had a dream for the company, I was in a position to help the nation and build a better world. Unfortunately, the dream wasn’t reciprocated. It was easy to spot me like a left wing party when all my intentions were noble. What could be right for me, might not be right to others.
Despite that, I am thankful of the experienced I gained, friendship and partnership formed.
Secondly, my family. Aisyah is with a kid and Sara has been nothing but a happy girl, living up to her name. Sara has been fighting to keep the lights up, which is troubling when you know she’s sleepy but decided not to give in. My mom told me, that was my trait.
Third, business. I’ve loads of ideas to be executed. The problem with a well lid mind is, there’s a lot of thinking, less of doing. So if nothing is moving, how can I ever move a mountain? Some basic life principle has to be altered like, ‘Work smart, not hard’. I’ve seen people whom just bulldoze everything in their way (definitely lack of decision making) and it worked for them. In fact most of them are successful in their own terms, which is good.
Over the past few years, I’ve learned a few tricks to reduce the over thinking and more of doing. It starts off with listing everything you want to, making sure it’s broken down to granular and actionable level. This definitely helped me with my procrastination.
Business is great but can be better. I was able to achieve yearly sales target within a quarter. All thanks to The Almighty, He decides whats mine and yours. The formula is simple, give all you can, that includes efforts when volunteering, making sure your customers are happy, staying up late to get a pixel perfect design and yara-yara. It sounds simple, because it is, we humans tend to overthink.
Forth, friendship. I realized, getting married sure shackled me to the bed, then we had a kid. I was jolted to the ground. I didnt want to miss my kids growth, it only happen once. Now I’m free during working hours, I was able to revisit my old customer, rekindled a friendship and be acquinted to new awesome people. I tend to keep myself away from negativity.
Fifth, the world. The hell with it. I read enough just to keep informed. I do not meddle and be bothered to investigate in great detail. Implementing the ‘whatever’ sure brought me more happiness. I do puzzle over the recent statements made by the minister, did they bump their head or just drank ants?
I guess that’s it for now.
Ps: I’ve decided to address my future self rather than you (the readers).
Posted on December 17, 2014
I’m sure we will hit the crossroad eventually. My time has come.
I have worked for 5 years in this organization. I have seen people come and leave, the good and bad of managers, the failing strategies, the lazy execution, the de-moralizing team and more. I can look at the numbers, opportunities, data, and gut feeling again and again, but is the grass really greener outside? Or yellowish of the same nature? Recession is coming. People stop buying houses. Purchasing power has declined.
The big question is, should I pack my bag or endure this?
Posted on November 25, 2014
I am letting go of my Macbook 11 inch for RM 1800 (negotiable) because I rarely use it and already have a Macbook 13.
The Macbook 11 was normally used to present during meetings with customer, play movie during vacation and primarily for mobility. Most of my work happens on the iMac and Asus Laptop, rarely used for heavy duty stuff.
It’s in mint condition and I’ve got to say it’s not exactly light and very sturdy aluminum exterior. There’s a few scuffed at the edges and bottom, and some buttons are shiny other than that, it’s close to brand new. Included, home made case (have been washed) and Case Logic sling bag.
Price is highly negotiable, I really want people to benefit from using it. Read More
Posted on October 30, 2014
It was exactly last year at this time, I was playing badminton with my officemate. Got home and argued a little with your mother. She was moody, I was tired, and the rest was history (you can read the story here). We slept for 3 hours and was awoken by mom, her water has broken.
Anyway, you turned one year today. Most parents would throw fancy party, birthday cake, a get together. Personally I’m not big on grand gestures. But of course for every birthday, theres’ a gift. I’m giving you something priceless, no money can’t buy. I am building you at time machine.
Well, to be accurate, it’s an email capsule.
What I’ll do is send you mails, conversing with the 18 year old version of you. Tell you my griefs, my hardship, how much I borrowed your money, how you drooled on me, or scratch my face or what ever. The point is, I want you to be prepared, that one day, she’ll be an adult and parent too. This life is meaningless if love is not spread.
To do this right, I am using IFTTT. Every time we post on instagram using the hashtag #saraedwin, it will be downloaded and automatically send to your email. Cool huh? But I’ll also mail you from time to time. Just a quick short ones. (So does this post!)
Till then, good night and happy birthday my little angle. Abah loves you.
Posted on October 1, 2014
At exactly 11 months old, Sara can finally walk!
She started standing up by latching on to pillars, desks, chairs, even my ass for months ( I can’t exactly recall when she started) and she’s darn good at it.
Here are the things that I learned from her.
1. Change is Good – from crawling to walking. Get out of that comfort zone and get uncomfortable, learn from it.
2. Perseverance – building up muscle to balance and walk requires a lot of effort. She made sure she was able to overcome that. Similarly, we should fix our target straight and move forward despite difficulties.
3. Never Give Up – pain is all I see. I saw her rollover and bumped her head, slammed the tiles, dropped on bums countless of time. Despite the pain, she still wants to learn to walk. So pain is good.
4. Don’t Give a Sh*t – pardon the wording but that’s what she does. Everytime we cautioned her, she’d look up, smile and move forward. Similarly, we shouldn’t give a damn what people think of us, what matters most is what you think of yourself.
5. Have Faith in Yourself – she believed and convinced she had the ability to do it (eventhough she doesn’t). Likewise, we must believe in ourself before we can get anything going.
The common belief is, kids would fall sick before they can do something new, unfortunately, I was the victim here. I got sick the day she could walk. It was also a blessing in disguise, day off + caught on camera = awesome dad moment *bling*