Dendam Kesumat Darjah Satu

I was doing some light shopping at a hypermarket nearby and saw my standard 1 teacher. I knew it in my heart, I must go and talk to her.

“Cikgu!”, gently I called upon her. “Ye saye?”, she replied.

“1989-1990, Taman Nirwana, Kelas 1A. Dulu cikgu mengajar kelas saya”, me making sure she was the right person. She nodded,”awak siapa?”, asking me back, being a typical citizen. Afterall, it’s not easy to strike a conversation with stranger these days.

“Cikgu dulu baling pensil warna 24 batang yang berharga RM9.80 ke dinding. Kemudian suruh saya pungut. Lalu mengheret saya ke depan kelas sambil menarik telinga saya. Cikgu lepas tu suruh saya berdiri depan papan hitam sampai habis kelas.” I smirked, full of sarcasm, pun very much intended.

She looked at me in disbelief. “Huh?” she said and paused. “Kenapa?” she asked.

At this point, anger has consumed me. I could feel the fire eating away my common sense. Back then, the only thing I treasured most in my early schooling was my colored pencil, not because it was expensive, but because I liked drawing that much. I used to draw and color when ever I feel like doing it.

“Kenape kenape pulak? Saya nak tanya, kenapa cikgu baling pensil warna saya ke dinding?” I asked her.

She looked up, obviously I am much taller than her. “Bende dah lama, manalah saya ingat.”

That wasn’t the answer I wanted to hear. The air was tensed, this is what I have stored for a very long time. I must unleash this evil thought of mine once and for all. Afterall, she broke all the colored pencil’s lead. It time to make her accountable for all her sins.

“Cikgu, masa saya darjah 1, saya sudah habis belajar sampai darjah 3 di rumah. Ibubapa saya pon pernah cakap dekat cikgu masa ambil buku rekod pelajar. Jadi sama ada saya tumpukan perhatian di dalam kelas atau tidak, itu bukan masalah saya. Itu masalah budak lain. Saya cuma ingat saya sedang asyik melukis kapal perang, cikgu tetibe maki hamun marah saya.” I expressed my anger.

“Habis tu, awak nak saya buat apa? Mintak maaf?”, she was being defensive about the things she did 20 years ago.

“Kurang ajar.” softly those words uttered from my mouth. “Kalau saya baling cikgu dekat rak sos ni pon tade gune.”

She looked like she was ready to make a run for it.

“Lain kali ingat. Tak semua murid akan hormat dekat awak sebab awak tu cikgu.” I left her speechless. Deep down, I was glad. Not only did I managed to unleash my anger, I’ve also ‘morally’ threatened her. Boy, that felt good!

To all teachers: Students may appear like litters of kitten, but some, are lion’s cub. So beware of whom you’re looking after.

Discussion: Whilst it was my mistake for not paying attention as it was TOO BORING, the teacher has no rights to destroy a personal property and make them do useless things. I admit, I am very vengeful when it comes to being oppressed. Now it’s time to find that crippled Discipline teacher who forced me to admit I stole from the canteen!

ps: The teacher looked very scared. Who wouldn’t? Glad I made her feel that way. Padan muka!

pss: I remembered every detail not because I have a very good memory, but because I was really mad at her for destroying my colored pencil.

psss: Yes, I am evil. But not a sadist.

 

There are 88 Comments for “Dendam Kesumat Darjah Satu”

:) terima kasih.

aku faham. aku pn bukan dgn emosi. mungkin sedikit terkesan dgn gaya penulisan kau.

aku cuma beri pandangan. dari sudut aku (sbg pembaca) aku harap kau tak terasa. lgpn itu gunanya tempat utk komen kan? haha

apa2 hal pn. mcm yg kau komen balas, aku masih dgn pendirian aku dan mengikut senario yg kau ceritakan aku masih tetap dgn itu.

aku bkn mmbebel. bkn berleter dan bukan berniat nk mengajar. cuma mmberikan pendapat. terpulang kepada kau yang selebihnya.

terima kasih sekali lagi. sekian.

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Aku tak anggap ni semua leteran. Ini adalah perbincangan yg sihat. Mungkin juga salah aku berkata kasar terhadap orang tua. Tetapi kita kene igt, ape yg membezekan kita semua adalah iman dah bukan pangkat, darjat, usia mahupun harta.

It’s all good bro 😉

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zaryl wrote on August 13, 2009 #1

perghhh ni mesti betul2 dendam neh
cikgu ko ada blog tak ? haha

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Kalau cikgu tu ade blog, atau bace blog aku, mesti aneh perasaan die.

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KNizam wrote on August 13, 2009 #2

SRK Taman Nirwana? Aku sekolah kat situ in 1991. :)

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NoktahHitam replied #1

1991 dah pindah gi Padang Tembak. 1/2 tahun kt situ, pastu America.

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nuni wrote on August 13, 2009 #3

haha padan muka cikgu tu.
aku pun akan buat benda yg sama kalau jumpa balik cikgu yg pernah ‘buat salah’ kat aku dulu.

aku pernah di’malu’kan sbb org lain tnya soalan kat aku, aku jwb (time cikgu tu sdg ckp kat dpn) n then dia nampak aku, dia berleter beberapa minit (malukan aku) pastuh suruh aku keluar dengan nada suara yang kasar.

aku tak explain. sbb malas nak ckp dgn org tgh emo.
tapi lain kali kalau aku jumpa lagi cikgu tu, mesti aku sound punya.

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cicak wrote on August 13, 2009 #4

wah bro !! unbelievable leh !! bro pls follow my twitter leh, just recently set up a account .. not let me alone bro .. xD

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eldy wrote on August 13, 2009 #5

hoho agak semat di situ sebab membalas dengan jayanya setelah ko berumur dlm 25/26 tahun.. ekeke.. betui ke? aku ada gak pengalaman waktu skolah, time sejarah.. tak dpt jwb soalan kene tarik sideburn sampai putus oo.. erm mana tak ngamuk terus baling kerusi kayu (dulu kan kayu keras tu) kepada cikgu pompuan tu, nasib tak kene.. tapi kerusi ancor.. cikgu trus lari kua kelas pastu beberapa ari kemudian tuka skolah.. hahaa.. sian dia..

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Perghhh.. sampai sideburn putus, aku tak leh bayangkan camne sakitnye tu. Cikgu tu terus blah sebab takut sgt kt ko.

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Kill-Vearn wrote on August 14, 2009 #6

this post sure is big! getting more than 50 comments in 2 days. kalau setakat membaca, ramai yg akan rasa tindakan NH kepada cikgu tu sangat kasar. Dengan ayat2 yg berbauh dendam kesumat yang membara, post ni telah menukar NH menjadi seorang watak jahat. tp bila pikir2, kesian jugak kat cikgu tu. dia tak ingat pun sape yang sound dia tu. pity. pengajaran yg ko nak bg kat dia tu mungkin tak sampai sbb dia tgh blur!

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Tu laa sebab name die dendam kesumat 😀

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UZiX wrote on August 14, 2009 #7

Kau marah sangat sebab harta kesayangan kau dirosakkan..yeah..kalau aku pun ingat sampai mati..

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Yeaahh.. sekarang bole beli byk2 lagi pencil kaler, tp value die lain2.

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xmindfreakx wrote on August 14, 2009 #8

Hidup ini ada karmanya, ibarat bola..tp ilmu itu yg mengubah seseorang manusia utk menilai atas apa jua tindakannya, tu yg muncul manusia2 “ego” dan perasan bagus, tp apa pun benda dah berlaku, dan itu juga atas ketentuanNya, aku juga ada ingat pada seorang guru yg menganiaya aku, tp itu dulu aku dh maafkan dah cikgu itu, tp aku terpikir kalu lah cikgu nak main psiko jek, makan psiko ke budak2 kita sekarang??

Sorry just my 5 cents..

Cheerios.. =)

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Psiko pon ade care nya jugak. Daripada psiko, lebih baik buat soft talk. Bile kite bincang, cakap elok2. Mungkin budak tu tak dapat tangkap, tp bile die balik, die fikir sendiri baik buruk, baru die tahu. Cara macam ni dapat mencerna minda yg lebih baik.

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Jejaka Malaya wrote on August 14, 2009 #9

personally aku rasa ko kena mintak maaf balik la dengan cikgu tu bai..sebab ko marah org tua dan org tua tu cikgu ko..wpun ko da belajar kt rumah sampai level darjah 3..sedikit sebanyak maybe cikgu tu tetap dah ajar ko tentang hidup e.g jangan marah x tentu pasal..

lagi 1..like someone here said…its not easy teaching a class full of 7 years old..maybe dia risau kalau dia x buat mcm tu pada ko..student lain dlm kelas tu anggap dia tidak tegas dan mula melukis sama..or main paper plain..masa dia cuba nk ajar tulis baca kepada kanak2 yang tidak senasib dgn ko…yang dah kuasai pengetahuan darjah 3 semasa berada didarjah 1.

just my 2 cents.

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Sebenarnye disebalik kata-kata itu, aku rase ade perlu 2-2 pihak mintak maaf. Yang bersalah dulu adalah dia, pesalah sekarang adalah aku.

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tasuke wrote on August 14, 2009 #10

typo.paper plane*

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tasuke wrote on August 14, 2009 #11

Akmar, awak salah orang ni. Yg reply kt awak tu bukan saya, tapi orang lain. Tade aku nak cite kt anak2 cucu aku mende yg aku buat and tak buat. Kalau dorg nak bace NH, bace la. Terpulang kepada mereka sendiri utk menimbangtara baik buruk.

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NoktahHitam wrote on August 14, 2009 #12

hoho.
dendam kesumat yang lama bertapak di hati.
bro thanks a lot for linking beautifulnara kat recently read noktah hitam.
terkesima gak sekejap.
thanks a lot eh. ^_^

p.s:- adakah saudara NH free untuk projek? please let me know. nak ubah theme beautifulnara skit.

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Project theme baru? Bole je, tp kene bagi link kt footer and kene tunggu skit. Skarang keje bersusun babe.

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beautifulnara wrote on August 14, 2009 #13

gila ganas ko ni,hahahah.

mesti cikgu tu balik sambil nangis,hik hik hik.

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blowie wrote on August 15, 2009 #14

Hahahahaha. Oh man. Lama tak bukak blog u Ed. I actually have a similar story like this. I went to an international school kat Jakarta and kat sana dah sampai third grade, balik Malaysia kene ulang darjah dua. Gile bosan! I especially disliked the teachers who treated pupils like we were imbeciles instead of young minds to be molded. I remember this one English teacher sergah I tgh melangut kebosanan, and ordered me to spell “cat”. And I was like, WTF? I pandang cikgu tu and cakap, “you’re asking me to spell ‘cat’? I can even spell caterpillar or catastrophe.” Cikgu tu bengang gila and since die pun agaknye tak tau cemana nak spell catastrophe, she sent me for counselling! Counselling! Dammit cam I plak yang ada masalah kan!

I soooo understand how you felt back then.

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NoktahHitam replied #1

HAHAHHAHAAH.

I told the teacher, caterpillar is spelled with double L and she refuses to accept (standard 2). I kept telling her double L until she was really annoyed. She decided to walk me to the discipline teacher next door (who is now my neighbour). The discipline teacher corrected her and she wasn’t satisfied. So she wrote on my report card of my misbehavior. I had trouble explaining to mom why I got C- for “Sahsiah”. I can not deny I am playful, but I’ve always maintained top 3 in class. My dad learned about me being nakal and gave me a whipping. It all started from caterpillar, which you spelled with double L.

Since then, whenever people speak of caterpillar transforming to butterfly, I kept my distance. Anti sungguh dgn caterpillar. Oh well.. one of the reason why Malaysian lacks EQ.

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Zaza wrote on August 15, 2009 #15

OMG..i can’t believe that some of you even find this funny and saying things like “maybe i should do this also..” what really happen to Malaysian?!
Ed just think the “dosa” u have spread. can u even sleep at night?

either u had a really really bad day or there’s something wrong with urself. the fact that u still have hatred since Standard 1 really bothers me. i mean since Standard 1?! i’m sorry about ur “horrible trauma” (duh!) but..is not like she threw ur pencils once a week or something for the whole year…or beat u..only ONCE! i seriously think u should seek help (psychologist ?).

i know this is harsh but i consider u as a friend,i’m not a politician, i know some of ur friends here support u but i just find this totally wrong and i have to say something.

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Since when correcting others is considered as DOSA? Please, don’t come up with your own fatwa. Read at-tahrim, janganlah kamu mengharamkan sesuatu yg halal ke atas mu. In this case, I was being harsh in my way of correcting her. I admit I am wrong, but the point is, someone has to tell her way of doing things sucks.

I’m sure you had a pencil color before. Do you know what happens if you dropped it? Yes, all the lead inside breaks. And it’s annoying to sharpen, because it breaks easily, what more use it! She threw it against the wall and asked me to pick up all the content. At 7, a 24 pencil color is the most expensive treasure I ever had. Try imagining someone throwing something you treasure most. How do you feel?

Reread, she did not only threw my pencil color, but she also dragged me from my seat PULLING MY EAR all the way to the front. Hey, 7 year old pain threshold is much different than a 26 year old man. She made me stand in front of the class, facing the black board. Can you imagine the vibe the class is getting? How shameful to be standing and touted as the bad boy? Even a 7 year old has pride.

All I did was draw in her class. Talents like that should be nurtured not punished. Plus, wouldn’t it be better if she actually tell me to pay attention and ask me to keep my pencil colors and drawing block, instead of doing things she did? I understand perfectly, so there was no need for her to result in violence.

2 years later we moved to America, my dad was relocated there. I was SHOCKED when I was taught by Americans. They were so compassionate and empathetic. They treated me as if I was their own child! I was never yelled at for all the naughty things I did. I even drew in class and they let me be. My drawing also won a Blue Ribbon award (as good as gold medal) in the whole Houston and it went to State level (Texas). That was something I drew while the teacher was busy explaining the three states of material (air, water and gas). Can you imagine that kind of magnitude? That big of a difference? Never did I once want to compare with Malaysian teaching system, unfortunately, I had to. For you to see the other side of the grass.

Back to my vengeance. I ADMITTED in my post, I AM WRONG, subtly. You just have to know, in my writings, there’s always a double meaning. So if you think you got me wrong, you probably are. So reread. I did not spend 3 hours writing something that will back fire.

I do not care for all the support I get because this discussion is between you and me.

If she did it once a week, I would’ve told my mom. And I’m sure my mom would gladly take the day off from teaching to see my teacher. Yes, my mother is a teacher.

The term is psychiatrist (hehe sometimes I got it wrong too). But if you’re willing to pay, RM300 per hour on my behalf, I would gladly attend 😉

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jipo replied #1

-wow i’m glad u gave me a long reply. i feel so appreciated!

-sorry about the “dosa” part. i should be clear on that. what i meant to say is actually “giving (bad?) ideas/thought to others”.

-sorry again..maybe this is just me, but it’s quite hard to get the tone that u r admitting u r wrong (i.e from “Whilst it was my mistake for not paying attention..”) while like other 95% of the content seems not.
i did reread it,somehow what i pictured in my head was so horrible that towards the end of ur article i felt so disgusted and very angry!

-yup..the lead inside break all the way.i know it. sometimes i might just as well bought a whole set of a new one. in high school,this is analogous to “dropping a normal Pilot/ Pilot G2 pen”..Gosh i hate that! i had to spend about RM3 for a new refill!

-i can’t really comment on the “teachers in America” thing but i could only state: different teaching/education system, different between developed & developing countries, different mentalities,etc..

-aaah psychiatrist..i know i have a weird feeling writing the word “psychologist”!

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Bro, “towards the end of ur article i felt so disgusted and very angry!” – It was written to disgust others. I had fun writing this, judging by the comments I’m getting. I could’ve just lied and write something normal, but what’s the point? That wouldn’t be ME anymore would it? Afterall, I tout myself as the Wicked Malaysian Mind. I don’t care what others see in me. You can hate me with all your guts. BUT would that be helpful, being angry at someone you don’t even know?

No worries about the apologies. It’s a healthy debate. I very much appreciate people commenting intellectually than emotionally (although I have to admit, I get the latter most of the time).

You’re studying in German right? You’d know the slight difference in our teaching system. It’s about mentalities 😉

G2 Pen! Expensive shit! I never had the luxury of using those pens. I would normally use a kilometrico. Cheaper and if pinjam-tak-pulang I wouldn’t mind, knowing that it will be used for good.


jipo wrote on August 15, 2009 #16

“Jadi sama ada saya tumpukan perhatian di dalam kelas atau tidak, itu bukan masalah saya. Itu masalah budak lain. ”

i don’t really get the ‘masalah budak lain’ part and i’m not a teacher myself but try to picture this if u were a teacher:

” it’s a hot and tiring day. u r teaching something at the front. there’s a student who doesn’t pay attention but u know he’s smart. he doesn’t disturb others. but he doesn’t realize that other students see him and this give others ideas/thoughts like

“maybe i should do what he do..that seems more fun”,
“even he find this boring”,
“gosh! he doesn’t sit still..drawing stuff by himself,moving hands here and there..so disturbing!”.
“i wonder what is he drawing..”

u know Standard 1 students are easily distracted. u have to teach this boy a lesson even though he’s a smart boy. “

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Fact. It was the first period of the day. It’s still cold, everyone is still fresh.

Fact. She did not give me a warning. But instead gave me a beating.

Fact. I sit way back in class. I was seated there next to Guru Besar’s grand children, who is also an intelligent kid and sleeps regularly in class. All seats was faced to the front. It is very unlikely for other kids to see what I do. I believed it was designed that way.

Fact. I wasn’t the first to start drawing.

Fact. Other kids were making paper planes.

Fact. I have already copied what she wrote on the board.

Fact. The teacher was wearing a light blue hijab, matching her light blue baju kurung.

Fact. Masalah budak lain, the top 3 in class was only separated by a few marks. Others fall out way behind. I know I was second, first was the Guru Besar’s grand children.

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jipo replied #1

“Fact. Other kids were making paper planes.”

u just couldn’t stop destroying my beautiful, good, ‘disney-and-fable-like’, imagination (reply before), did u?
hahaha..u win lah!

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Like I said bro, I remembered EVERY detail in that scene. We tend to remember things we hate most 😉


jipo wrote on August 15, 2009 #17

#the first time ur Auto-comment-reply email doesn’t go to Spambox..i wonder why#

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NoktahHitam replied #1

Not too sure about the mechanism myself. My blog version is 2 years behind. I never upgraded my system. But I am guessing, the first time you submit, it will go to “Awaiting Approval”. Once I approve, your next comments will automatically be published. If you haven’t comment for ages, your comments will revert back to “Awaiting Approval”. Cool eh? Maybe I am the only thinking it’s cool 😉

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jipo wrote on August 15, 2009 #18

fuhh..ganas gila ko..

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titan wrote on August 16, 2009 #19

haha..aku pn pnh buat jugak..2 years ago.
but seriously, rasa lega,puas gila² beb..
dah bertahun² terperap dlm hati.

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panda wrote on August 20, 2009 #20

sape cikgu tu … sy penah ajar kat situ juga…

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enjay wrote on August 23, 2009 #21

Leave a comment, I won't bite ;)

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